Freedom

[chaser]

Freedom! What do you think of when you hear/see this word?

I miss being over seas, I miss every bit of it, I miss my war, I miss my gun, I want to be back over there doing what I was trained to do, don’t get me wrong I love being home, but there, is where I need to be.

I am tired of feeling this way, I feel empty I feel stressed, most days like a monster. I have flashbacks in my head, images that refuse to leave, your face, the boys face, I couldn’t fucking do anything to save you, I had to fucking do what was right for my unit! …to keep my men safe, I’m sorry I wasn’t able to do more, I’m sorry your life ended and I couldn’t save you. Please forgive me.

I had to come home though because fuck what you learned... staying alive and coming home was rule 1. That is all.

I did not write this, but I can relate to this totally!!...and the protected will never understand.